zombiesailor:

iamcaseyf:

shipwreckedinsuburbia:

zombiesailor:

This is going to be hard, but no one said it was going to be easy. From day one, I knew you were the one. I knew in my power, I had to make you mine. So I fought for you, continuously. All the times we talked, all the times you’ve left, all the times you told me this is it, all the times you said I was the one..You always came back to me, no matter of the situation and I always took you back. I don’t know what happens from here, all I can say is that history may repeat itself and we will may be on day be together a gain and fulfill my dream as the girl you see walking down an aisle wearing white. The girl who gets to wipe those tears that run down your face when you watch the Perfect Storm. The girl who gets to sit next to you in the car and let you sing to her. The girl who can let you have a boy named Zeke and a husky. The girl who will soon be a woman, that will soon grow old with you. And sleep in the same bed with you, wake up to your beautiful face every morning and look at your face right before I sleep so that I immediately dream of you again. The one who stays with you when we become old and weak, the one that will never ever leave your side no matter what. I want to be there for you always, when no one else can..I will. But I can always dream right? Maybe it’ll come true, maybe it won’t. We have fate in our hands and I have you in my heart, mind, and soul. You were and you are my everything. You’ve put me through so much pain, some wonder why I ever put up with it or why I stayed. But they don’t know what goes on between the two of us. They don’t know the special bond we had, or the love we’ve experienced or still do experience. I can you let me discover what love really is and what it really means. I wouldn’t have put up with so much if I knew I wouldn’t be with you for the rest of my days. I fought to fix us, so did you at times. No matter how mad you got at me for the most stupid things that I would do, you would always apologize and quickly tell me how much I mean to you and that you wouldn’t ever want me to leave you. I made promises, I will keep them. Although you aren’t fulfilling yours, I know that maybe one day you will once again. I can’t sleep at night and not replay or relive all the times we’ve spent together. All the times that I forgot in the past. It makes me smile but yet it makes me hurt so much that it’s all gone now. I remember the first time we spoke, saw each other, met each other, our first phone conversation, the time you told me you liked me, our first date, the night you asked me out, the nights/mornings we spent talking on the phone, the first time you told me you loved me as it escalated throughout the months. I remember so much and it’s quite surprisingly because of my bad memory. But when I’m with you, I feel like everything has stopped and I’m in my happy place. I never want to forget you, I know I never will. Do you remember the time we were on my couch and I was crying from something earlier and you held me so close and you told me how much of an amazing girlfriend I am and how happy you are to be with me. That you love me so much and that I shouldn’t cry, you apologized so much and wiped my tears. I never felt so complete or protected in my life. If that makes sense. I fear that I will never get to experience any of these moments again with you, I don’t want to experience them again with anyone else. I know, I may be young and naive. But I know what I want in life and that is you. You helped me through so much. You told me never to give up, you were my inspiration to do so much. You were the reason I got a job, to buy my first car so I could see you. Although times have changed now, you still tell me you love me and I believe you. I just wish it didn’t have to be like this. I sometimes wonder if you feel the same and if you ever regret the decision you made. I can not make you change it, as much as I wish I could’ve. But I can’t make you do anything. I just want you to be happy, because when you are..I am. I am me when i’m with you. I gave you my heart and everything. I gave you myself and you gave me back. I’m sorry for everything I have done, I wish I could make it up to you. I wish I could’ve made you happy and didn’t have to fail on so many things. I hope you love me as much as I love you. (Although I do love you more than you love me so :p) Or that’s how I feel now a days anyway. I’m sorry you had to go through all of this but I hope it was all worth it. I hope I was worth it, because you are worth it. I’m in love with you, always have been, always will. I’m sorry it had to end this way, I love you Luigui. 

tears in my eyes..