I was looking for my voice, But the king of the crickets, he had it. I was looking for this song.  I don’t want to speak with it  I just want to see with it..  I wanna make a ring of it, so I can wear it on my little finger.

The King of the Crickets by Eli Mardock will always remember me of you, in a weird way. I’ve known you for so long, but we started talking exactly a year and a half ago. It was amazing. I shared everything with you. My feelings, my thoughts, my fears.. You’ve given me the best advice and you always wanted the best for me. But then, I got too attached. I started to realize who you really were and everything changed so fast. I loved you so much because you were wise, strong, stable, intelligent, you were so beautiful, the most beautiful person I know and I drowned in my own emotions so many times, but you took my hand and guided me through it all. You took care of me like no one else ever did. You were my world. But then, the truth came out and I think I’ve lost you forever. I saw it coming, but it was so painful, It still is. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, but yet I lost myself because of you. I lost myself in you. I think people never understood what we had. You were not ”all that I got” but you meant the world to me. I followed you everywere. I’ve given you my all and you were not even mine and when you left, I felt like nothing. Like I was nothing.. I really lost myself. I didn’t know what to do with my life  Like I had no plan with my life anymore. I didn’t know where to go. But time heals all wounds, I know that. There are still nights when I feel so alone and I just want to be with you but I know that won’t happen. We’re over, you are gone. I just want you to know that I really believe that we were meant to know eachother. You’ve taught me so many lessons. You’ve changed my life. Thank you for being there. It’s going to be hard letting you go but I have to do this for you, for us. You’re worth everything. I love you :)

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